I Have No Thoughts, I Have No Words

For days, I have been at a complete loss on what to write. I have not downloaded my pictures to my computer, so I cannot post them. Life is crazy-busy right now. My mom's best friends daughter was killed in a car accident on Wednesday. She also happened to be a friend that I have known my whole life. She was my age. I am still in shock... I don't know what to say about this because it is hard to believe that it happened.

Tonight we are taking H and a few of friends out for pizza, go carts, and miniature golf. They have predicted storms for tonight so who knows how that will end up going. I really don't want to disappoint him and his friends, but I really don't want a housefull of kids again this weekend. This seems to be to have become our ritual since the beginning of the school year. OMG! It gets to be way too much sometimes. My mom was originally going to watch our youngest two, but she will be at the funeral home tonight, so I've had to call a friend to see if she will watch them and then take care of all three of the kids tomorrow while we are at the funeral. My head is getting foggy just typing all of this. I'll try again later.

No Title Today...

I'm just trying to make the afternoon pass a little faster. I'm anxious to get home! Actually I have to go by Wal-Mart first. Tonight is girls night out at the spa. Looking forward to it a lot, but dreading it a little too. M just got back from Orlando on Wednesday night and I want to catch up and spend time with him. But I guess it will be good for him to just have some Daddy time with our kids. With that being said, I am again really looking forward to living it up at the spa! Totally beautified! I cannot wait... so I'm heading out of here early!

I hope you all have a great weekend!

Before You...

Before you were conceived, I wanted you

Before you were born,I loved you

Before you were here a minute, I would die for you!

Interview 2

Here is my interview from Dena...

How would you best describe yourself???

Compassionate, hardworking, sensitive to others, always going out of my way to help out, sarcastic, loving (I love huggine people!)



If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go???

Travel Europe with my husband and kids. I have been places there that are so unbelievably peaceful and serene. I would love to just be some place like that without constantly running arounds to get where everyone needs to be in our day-to-day lives.



If you could sleep with one celebrity who would it be? And why?
Umm... do I have to pick just one. I am totally turned on by straight, white teeth and seriously muscular arms!!


How do you find time to balance working, being a mother and being a wife???

It's hard, but I don't have a choice. I honestly live by my day planner. If it is not written down in there, it will not get done. I put my marriage at the top of my list in my life because it is the easiest to get set aside and neglected. If M and I don't have enough time to spend together, then we will skip a couple of the kids extracirricular activities that week or we will just throw together something quick for dinner. Doing little things like that, not only give the kids a break, but it means that we have a few more moments to spend with each other.


As for work, I am out of here when it is 5PM. I don't bring work home with me, talk about it, or even think about it!

On being a mommy... I love it!! I love everything that comes with it.

Interview

This is my interview from Soccer Mom in Denial...



1. Family bed or is everyone in their own bed?

Everyone is their own bed (M and I share, of course)! The only time that the oldest ones sleep with me is when M is out of town. D gets to sleep there when he is sick. Other than that he moves around too much for any of us to be comfortable.

2. What music do you like to listen to?

I enjoy almost anything. I don't like music with a lot of cussing or all that screaming that they refer to as music. Other than that it is forever changing with my moods.

3. What is your typical Wednesday?

Work... S goes to dance... throw together something for dinner... send the kids to church... bathe D... put D to bed... wait for the kids to get home... make sure they get a snack, baths, brush their teeth... lay down with S and talk about the day... lay down with H to scratch his back and talk about his day... take a long, hot, relaxing bath... blow dry my hair and brush my teeth... spend quality time with my husband... talk to M about our day... read... watch tv... go to sleep!

4. Are you originally from Texas?

Yep, I've lived in the same town for all my 26 years. Only in my 3rd house.


5. At your 80th birthday, what do you hope your grandchild will say for a toast?

This is hard... I would hope that they say what an amazing woman I am and that I have accomplished, supported, encouraged, and motivate those that mean the most to me.

Just BSing

These are a few pictures I took recently. My god, I love this kid!!!

Anyway, the show that I put on out here at the base was a hit. Everyone loved it... or... did everyone love me? Hmm, that would be a tossup. I can only speculate what the real reason was. At least they want to come back next year. It was a pain in my ass to get some of them to show up this year.

But... I digress...

I am dreading the upcoming weekend and next week. Right now, I cannot, actually I will not tell you why. I will post that later on next week. However, it got me thinking that I really need to get some new friends. Everyone that I am close are not even in town anymore. I don't have the time to talk on the phone so that pretty much just leaves me shit out of luck for company. If you want to talk to me I am basically going to have to lug you around with me to all of the kiddos activities in order to even be able to have a conversation of some sort. I have even resorted to working out with my kids. S does my flexibility videos with me and H does the aerobic activities with me. D tries, but he just thinks that it is funny. Well it's a little on the difficult side to work out with a toddler on your leg. But if I were to change my way of thinking to the glass being half full, I could honestly just consider him a weight. That would make my workout more beneficial wouldn't it.

I've started baking myself in the tanning bed too. I've only been twice but you can really tell. I don't know if it is the bed or the lotion, but I may not have to be in there as long as I was thinking that I would have too.

**THIS PORTION HAS SELF DESTRUCTED**

Happy, Happy, Happy

That is my feeling about the weekend being over... I guess. I cannot say that it bad because it definitely was not. M took care of the kids for me all day on Saturday so that I could just read and sleep. My nap lasted from 1100AM until 600PM. Yep, I love to sleep. However, I did not get much of a nap yesterday because it was Easter. Our church was packed full. We even got there 30 minutes early, but had to wait in line at the nursery and that caused us to run behind for the service so we ended up sitting in hard, metal fold out chairs at the back of the church. The message was awesome, so any discomfort that I originally had disappeared quickly. Lunch was good too. I hated that the ham had to be cooked in the oven instead of being smoked in our smoker. But the weather was totally weird the past few days and it was freezing outside. The kids were all bundled up to hunt their eggs. I didn't bother taking many pictures of that because you couldn't even see their precious little faces. I will think about posting some of the ones that I do have whenever I get around to downloading them to my computer.






Update: Easter pictures

Coloring eggs

Mommy and D
Sawyer and S
D

Three Meme

Three Things That Scare Me:
1. Having something bad happen to my family (sorry that's obvious, but it's a huge fear of mine)2. Guns
3. Snakes

Three People Who Make Me Laugh:
1. My kids
2. my husband
3. myself

Three Things I Love:
1. my kids
2. my husband
3. LIFE

Three Things I Hate:
1. Stupid people
2. being inconvenienced unnecessarily
3. Rude/nosy people

Three Things I Don’t Understand:
1. People who just don't get it
2. Working 8 hours a day
3. Why people don't take kids' feelings and desires seriously

Three Things On My Desk: (Wow, I'm going to have to narrow this one down)
1. computer
2. telephone
3. lots of pictures of my kids

Three Things I’m Doing Right Now:
1. blogging (duh)...
2. supposed to be working
3. thinking about how I should be napping (yes at 7:45AM)

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1. travel everywhere with my husband and kids... I've had the opportunity to have experienced this, but they have not
2. see my grandchildren
3. quit work and stay at home with my kids

Three Things I Can Do:
1. ask M about his favorite "talent" of mine
2. Be the Mommy ever!
3. Make everything better for my kids

Three Things I Can’t Do:
1. Sorry... I can't answer this because I don't believe in it.
2.
3.

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To:
1. My son's laugh
2. My advice
3. Music... music... music (the real stuff... not the s**t they have these days)

Three Things You Should Never Listen To:
1. "Music" they have these days
2. Rude things people may say to you
3. the voice in your head that says you can't do something

Three Things I’d Like To Learn:
1. How to make the voice of children heard
2. Quilting/knitting (hopefully Lysandra will teach this about this)
3. interior decorating

Three Favorite Foods:
1. sushi
2. anything Italian
3. anything mexican

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid:
1. Smurfs
2. Snorks
3. Flintstones

Three Things I Regret:
1. I don't regret anything...
2.
3.

Whoa!

M is ready for another little baby. OMG!!! Didn't we just have one? Yes? That's what I'm remembering too. I mean, how many of these little, live creatures do we have to keep creating? Someone... please... help my husband! I understand this new, undeniable love/obsession that he has found with D, but PLEASE we have to stop somewhere. It's not like he's never around so when he's with the kiddos it's all fun and games. He is there for both the good times and the hard times. I know that D has fulfilled all his dreams/hopes that a baby brings, but isn't that enough? Don't get me wrong... I am all for more kids too, but can't we wait a little bit? I was thinking about after the first of the year (2008). Anyway, I'm too tired to write more. Talk to you all later.

What Do You Call Them?

Buddy, Bud, Crash, Bubba, Bubbaloo

Sissy, Sister, Sis, Peanut, Twiggy

Baby boy, little man, sweet pea, Baby, Bruiser

Where do pet names come from? What makes you want to call someone that? Who knows, but I love them! I love my sweet, special names for each of my kiddos. They may not be off-the-wall original names, but they mean something between each of us and ultimately, that's all that matters.

S's egg hunt and dinner was fun, but not as large as I expected. There was barely enough food for everyone, which is weird because around here there is always plenty. But that's okay because it wasn't about the food... it was about the girls and them being with each other and being with their families. H had soccer pictures at the same time so M had to run him over to the park across the street. I absolutely adore living in a small town where you can take care of almost anything in just a matter of minutes. We've debated moving to a place where we can both make a lot more money. But when you weigh being highly educated and offering a company a lot versus the well being of your family... family always wins!

Oh, by the way, I did forget my cameras. I cannot believe that I didn't even remember to take one of them. What is wrong with me? I never go anywhere without taking my camera and taking at least a dozen or so pictures. It must be time to clean out the mental filing cabinet in order to make room for more.

Until tomorrow...

Before I Was A Mom

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about Immunizations.

Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do examinations or give shotstests.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.


I didn't wakeup in the middle of they night every 10 minutes to make sure everything was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

Damn You Blogger!

Why won't you ever publish my post the way I want it to look!

Pictures

I'll leave you with a few pictures...