I started this big long post and D shut down the F*cking computer. All I can say is that everything and everyone sucks a** today!! It took me 30 GD minutes to write that post too.

What I remember is this...

due to an idea from some random weirdo today (smile, you know who you are) I am stealing this particular idea from Kellan. I'm going to leave this opportunity open through Friday. You can ask me any questions you want... anything. I will answer as openly and honestly as I can in a new post. You can leave the question anonymously if you wish. As long as they are serious.

I putting myself out there for you, but you only have a limited time to take advantage.

And since I'm already is a pissy mood, I just go ahead and vent about sick and tired I am of M's hours. I am sick and tired of being here by myself all the time. I didn't sign on the be a single parent and I'm ready for a little bit of help. I told him that I didn't mind him working long hours every once in a while because I knew he had a really big and expensive project going on BUT he goes in a 4AM all the time now and he just now walked through the door.

In two weeks, I am leaving for 2 weeks with my job. Secretly I am so glad. I need a break. I need time to myself. I need to leave this behind and I'm going to enjoy it. Does it make me a bad Mommy that I look forward to being away from my kids? Am I a bad wife for being upset and feeling extremely distant from my husband? I'm ready to put the kiddos to bed, shower, and go to sleep myself. I don't even want to be with him tonight.